Anxiety

I feel strange today. Perhaps it's the anxiety associated with so many things yet to happen in my little world. I am to start my new job on Monday plus other things. I am just... what is the word!

I feel strange today. I am not hoping for a good start. I am praying for it. Praying always helps. I would rather pray than just hope. I prayed today. I prayed for a lot of people I know. I prayed for their prosperity and success. I am sure once in a while they pray for me as well. I am sure they remember me in their prayers. Perhaps some of the good things that have happened to me is because they prayed for them to happen to me.

I feel strange today. There are things... thoughts circling around my mind and I cannot pen them down. They haven't yet taken the shape of words. I don't know yet what these things are. There is something that is bothering me. Yet I don't know what it is. Perhaps I'll find out soon. Perhaps I never will.

I feel strange today. I am not sad. But I am not exactly happy either. I guess this feeling is so subtle that even I cannot give it a name. It is something. And perhaps it's nothing. Even feeling nothing sometimes equates to feeling something.

I have written crap here. But even writing crap sometimes is good. So I'll keep writing...

I feel strange today...